Wanting Him

There is this boy who I secretly wanted that one of my friends had. Yeah I know bad idea right? I just couldn't help myself he is so cute. His swag is [yeah I said swag] just one of those that make you want to bite your lip. Well me and this person not friends anymore and neither are they I want to make the move but I don't know if it's the right idea being as though he looks way out of my league. I know I shouldn't down my self like that but I just don't want him to reject me and I will be hurt from that. I just don't know what to do anymore but damm I can't stop thinking about how cute he is. He has a body to die for and he is just gahhh! I want him I just wish I knew how to get him Dammmm I wish I knew I guess only time will Tell huh?

The Untitled

Some people just don't know what they have in life and they don't know how dumb they look when they have everything and they fuck it up. How they fuck it up you ask? They fuck it up by believing what the hear/think and going off of there dumb thoughts to just fuck up what that have that was good like a friend who does everything for them and always stop what they were doing to help them out. Also having a dude that was just "EVERYTHING" he had a nice job and he was cute and to just throw it all away on some dumb shit is just DUMB. Then the person you call your brother you go behind his back and talk shit about him like wtf come on now really tho your a bitch for that and it sucks because I thought you was a good friend. You point out all the flaws in everyone else but hey look at who the fuck you are they are the flaws you have sorry but we don't fucking have them. Calling me a hoe no bitch I am not you sorry but I can count who I had sex with on my hands unlike you. I should be petty and do what you think your other friends did I should be that bitch but you know what I have more class then you so ill just say Fuck you and stay away from us because we don't want you around anymore.

Why Me

Why me why must I always be the one to get turned down. This always happen I don't want to doubt myself but why can't I be happy in life. I want someone to call my own I want someone to make my day I just want someone in general who will be there for me and hold my heart and keep my close. Every dude I try and get close to ends up turning me down for what I don't know but I always get turned down. There must be something wrong with me or them I don't think I am too much to handle I just think I am misunderstood in the worst way. People in this so called gay lifestyle tend to often judge a book by it's cover and I think it is the wrong thing to do why judge the book before you read it you may never know how exciting, fun, or educational the book my be. I just think that I need to leave this dreaded city of Baltimore and venture off somewhere else and just find me someone who isn't going to judge me before getting to know me. Maybe on day ill have my prince charming but for right now I am Single and hating it but o well that's life huh!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY

TODAY IS MY BESTFRIEND ASHLEY KIERSTEN GILES BIRTHDAY SHE IS TURNING 19 TODAY AND I LOVE HER TO DEATH. A LOT OF PEOPLE DON'T LIKE HER BECAUSE SHE DOES DO THINGS SOMETIMES THAT A BESTFRIEND SHOULDN'T DO BUT THIS GIRL HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME AND HAS HAD MY BACK NO MATTER WHAT AND FOR THAT ILY SNICKERZ IS MY NICKNAME I GAVE HER LLS! WE ARE GONNA HAVE A NICE WEEKEND.

Missing A Certain Someone

Lately I have been thinking about my ex K.R. We dated back when I was going to the 11th grade and I miss him dearly. The reason we broke up is because I was still in love with the love of my life and I thought he was going to take me back.[People don't ever do something stupid like that you always miss out on something good]But he didn't take me back and I missed out on something good and now I sit her wondering what if. Now he is doing big things he attend's Georgia Tech and is now studying in Europe having the time of his life and I am stilling sitting here wondering what if and maybe if I wouldn't have left him I would still have him. He still my boo and will always be ♥

The Two New Boys In My Life

So I have these two boys in my life right now one is from California and looks the the singer Chris Brown. Then you have one who is from the Dominican Republic and is very very funny and sometimes a Pain. Here is the why Brandon became part of my of life

• Brandon aka Chris Brown- This dude right here is my new uncle and what I mean by this is he is my Aunt[Alia's boyfriend]. He is a very cool dude from the time that we met he was cool and he is also cool with me being gay and most dudes don't usually accept that. But to end this little story he is the Man and I hope he continues to make my aunt happy. You Man Breezy!
  
  

• Ruben-This nigga we clicked from day one. This nigga is a fool makes you laugh makes you wanna cuss him out but you can't be madd at him for that long. Ruben has been a good friend and has been there for me lately and I put him the category as a true friend and I love him for that. This Dominican will always be apart of my life weather he likes it or and yes I am making him stay my friend lol but Ruben ily dude [no homo even tho I am homo lmao]

My Circle[The New Comers In My Life]

The circle of friends I have ooooo boy I love them. In this blog I am going to tell you about why I love them and how much they mean to me.

• Alia-She is the best friend anyone can ask for she keeps my head on right she gives me the best advice I could ask for. She keeps my secrets and just recently she opened her home to me and let me live with her and since then we became a lot closer and we connect an share things on a more mental and emotional level and we often help eachother out when we are down she is the one that makes my day and they one who keeps a smile on my face and now that she has this lovely man name Brandon in her life [learn about him in the next blog] she is in a much more happier place and keeps her in a positive place in her life. ily Alia.D.S.Greene.

• Ciara-This girl right here whooo! Let me tell you about her. She is the loudest Hatiaon /Jamaican girl you will ever know. She has a head full of dreads and a big ol butt to die for. On the other hand she is the best loving care person you will ever know she is funny outgoing and smart. She spits the best knowledge and when you need good advice she gives it too you and whenever she is down she is willing to allow you to help her. ily C.L.Miller

• Martin-My Uncle/Bodyguard this nigga right here has me dying laughing in tears almost all the time. From him acting retarted to him just being a hot drunk mess. Whenever I am down he makes sure I am okay and is ready to fight who ever did it lol. But he is family and I will always Love My Unlce.

• Jordon-This boy omg I love him to death we relate on some many levels we can sit and talk for hours. Jordon is the type that is very sarcastic but he does it in a loving way. Yes I have feelings for him more then a friend but he will always and forever be the friend that I will always have no matter what and for that ily J.C.Nesmith

• Shatia/Ariel-These two girls I know as much as I know the rest of them but they are the coolest and you will have a good time with both of them. Even we you are down they make you happy and can always keep your in a positive place. ily guys ♥

• Jailyn-This is my baby right here. She is the youngest out of the circle and she one of the more creative people. She makes jeans and they look great. She is quite and shows you a lot of love and when you are down she makes sure that you feel like your on top of the world when you around her and she also keep a positive head and keep the aura around you uplifting ily Jay ♥

This Is Old But It Says On My Mind

PEOPLE NO MATTER IF YOU GAY,STRAIGHT,LESBIAN YOU HAVE RELATIONSHIP AND SOMETIMES PEOPLE MAKE THEM SEEM WAY BIGGER THEN WHAT THEY ARE. WHAT THE POINT PEOPLE REALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIPS. AS LONG AS YOU AND WHOEVER YOU ARE GOING WITH ARE HAPPY IT SHOULDN'T MATTER. THAT'S THE PROBLEM NOW DAYS WHY PEOPLE CAN'T KEEP WHO THEY ARE WITH. PEOPLE OFTEN MAKE IT SEEM LIKE THERE BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND IS A HOT BAG OF NICE RED HOT CHIPS WHEN THEY KNOW THAT THEY ARE A PIECE OF CRAP AND THEY HAVE ISSUES BUT NOOOOOO THEY WANT TO POST ON MYSPACE AND FACEBOOK AWWWW ME AND MY BABY AND PUT THERE OTHERS LAST NAME ON THERE FACEBOOK REALLY??? YOU SHOULD GET OVER IT LMAO.I AM JUST SAYING KEEP YOUR RELATIONSHIP UNDER RAPS AND YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO KEEP THEM FOR AWHILE...BUT HEY I GUESS PEOPLE LIKE MAKING THERE RELATIONSHIPS BIGGER THEN WHAT THEY ARE..I SAY YOU KEEP SHIT 100% AND SHOW PEOPLE LOOK WE ARE HUMAN WE MAKE MISTAKES WE NOT PERFECT AND I BET YOU YOUR RELATIONSHIP WILL BE THERE FOR A LIFE TIME TRUST ME I HAVE BEEN TROUGH IT CRIED IN SCHOOL.CUSSED THEM OUT IN SCHOOL EVERYTHING AND WE LASTED TWO YEAR..PEOPLE TRY IT I AM TELLING YOU SOME TRUE SH**...BELIEVE IT.

Wanting Something You Can't Have

Have you ever wanted something you couldn't have? Well Right now in my life I do and the shit kills me. It's like wanting that new toy that just came out and your parents tell you NO. Everyone knows that feeling lol. Well i am kinda taking it well I suppose. Being as tho I see the person all the time and they always around. The other day I had a dream about him like this shit is non stop and you know how they say dreams come true shiid not this one never in a million years will I get this person I am just happy that he is a good friend to me and I can live with that. You don't always get what you want but you always get something that will last and a friendship is better then nothing. Sometime I do sit and think about well what if he was mine and if her was how would things be but there only thoughts that will never come true and I should just stick to what I know and that is having him as one of my good FRIENDS.

DEYDIDIT

THIS IS THE FAMILY AND DON'T YOU FORGET IT WE TAKING OVER. Aodidit, Hedidit, Shedidit, Wedidit. . . DEYDIDIT......

TO BE CONTINUED...........

Sunday Night's

SYN, CJ, AND KALI THIS IS FOR YALL

SUNDAY NIGHTS YOU KNOW WHERE YOU SHOULD BE BOURBON STREET AKA OLD HAMMER JACKS. PARTY WITH TIUP, KOOL KIDZ ENT AND TAKEOVA ENT EVERY SUNDAY FROM 8-12 AND THE THEME THIS SUNDAY IS LADIES NIGHT THAT MEANS LADIES YOUR FREE EARLY SO GET THERE.

The Start Of Something New

So it's the third day of summer and I am starting to not feel this summer. Last summer I graduated high school getting ready to become a young adult and just start doing this on my own. Well this summer I moved out my moms house and I live with someone who has taking me in since day one and i love her for it Alia.D.S.Greene. She is everything you want in a friend and more. Well she has found love this summer and being in the house with them is starting to make me depressed because last summer I was talking to a lot of boys having the time of my life but this summer seems like it's going to be a fail. There are so many boys i tired to talk to and they look at me like I am ugly or something and I just think to my self Joey you not ugly they just missing out on something good. There is so much a person can take and can make there self believe and I just can't do it anymore. Being Single is not cool and sometimes I just sit in cry about it but crying doesn't do anything but make it worst. So there for I am going to try and become content with the fact that I am not wanted and enjoy this summer with the ones who love me the most for an example Ciara, Jordan, Martin, Shatia, Melesha, Ayasha, And The Dominican Ruban. I know that since I have them in my comer ooo and also Alia that my summer will not be boring and even if I am single they will never leave me lonely.